Smoking cigarettes in an apartment that doesn't belong to me
Bandages playing in the background
Wishing that my cigarette was actually a joint
Plans fell through with Emm - more opportunites later
Brett Easton Ellis inspires me
His writing style sticks with me
"Let's see what needles do"
Wishing that my water was vodka
Talked to my mom - she's not letting me live my life the way I want to
Well - not true, she's bugging me about making decisions I don't want to
"Flip on the telly, wrestle with Jimmy"
The cd keeps skipping - I pay no attention
Wrote an old friend tonight
I miss him even though I don't know what it's like to have him around
It rained today - in keeping with my mood
Drove 2 1/2 hours to the city today
In a daze the entire time
Kept thinking back to my dream last night
Longing for a closeness to someone, anyone
"You're raping my mind"
Things got heated here in the apartment I don't own
The girls are getting tense
I think they spend too much time together
They'll swear they never get sick of each other - not possible
Everyone needs their breaks
All I see is apartment buildings and trees
Why do I long to live here so much?
There isn't even good scenery
"Born to be down, I think I'll get used to it"
