It's stupid, useless, pointless
I just feel like why do I even bother writing these journals
Cause I must sound so sad and pathetic
But tonight was another piece of shit
More screaming, more tears
As soon as it starts I turn to stone
And all I want to do is scream
Screaming words that will hurt him as much as the one's he's using towards me
Making me realize how people I thought were my real friends aren't
And I can't find anything to throw myself into to get my mind off it
One "friend" couldn't give me a proper goodbye
And another who was able to turn me into an enemy in a split second
All I do is wallow in myself
This thought flow isn't even coming out properly
And a trip I thought would happen has been put on hold
